Make mi happy leh...

2dae's competition was juz disasterrific... It was juz horrific... I only win 1 round so far leh... Tml still got 3 more rounds... Hope i can break my record by winnin another tml... Actually, i was so close to winnin another round but i made a horrible mistake... I made a grave mistake tt a weiqi player shld n must never make in his/her entire bloody life... That mistake is TO GIVE UR OPPONET A CHANCE TO EAT ALL UR SEEDS!!!! ARH!!!!! I gave up immediately... Dis is the 1st time i throw in the towel... I usually fight all the way to the end... But dis time, its hard for mi to sit dere any longer... I went toilet to wash my face den went off after tellin my frens tt i'm goin off...

I practically gave him the whole board to trash n own n push n humiliate mi!!!! Oh, e humiliation!!!! E pain!!! It hurts... A LOT... U understand my pain ma...??? It's like, u very well noe tt u can win, u can make it, u can do it... But lady luck, fate and blessins r all not dere, gone... ALL GONE...!!! I lost... Lost very badly... It hurts mentally... Its harder to heal as compared to bein hurt physically...

Will i ever get to shine??? I wonder... Wonderin how long will it take...