Second day n i lost every round again... AGAIN!!! I only won 1 round in total.... Juz like last yr lor... I mean i didnt improve at all meh....??? BAKANA (IMPOSSIBLE)!!!! It was juz bad.... Well, obviously some of my opponents are very strong la... So much better den mi... But still, i lost like quite a lot of seeds to dem leh... Ok la, it was a lot... I even lost to 2 yr1s leh... How come....!!!! How can dis b....!!!!! I went for almost all trainins n even practise at hm leh... I cannot even win e yr1s leh...!!!!

ARH..................................!!!!!!

I really really really feel like screamin out loud lor... But cannot la, if not other ppl think i crazi... Oh, i tell u another matter tt makes mi very xtreme sad... Dis really saddens mi the most... All my weiqi frens, xcept 1, hav the sp's jacket leh....!!!!!

ARH..................................!!!!!!

I'm so so so damm damm damm frustrated i tell u....!!!! I'm like so ignored... I dun even noe when they got e jackets lor... But oh well, i very well noe y la... I'm weak ma... But at least i tried my best... At least la hor... It seems that tryin my best isn't enuff, i assume...

I'm lost... Lost my mind, my soul n my fightin spirit... I'm clueless on wat i can do in dis life... I dunno how to plan, i dunno how to play da game... I'm at lost... I'm juz like an empty walkin shell... Only noe how to think but not clearly, only noe how to talk but all nonsense, only noe how to play but cannot win, only noe how to study but cannot pass... I can no longer c the path i'm walkin... Doshite.....??? Sa, kana....

Well, tt all for my eno post dis time... Time to face reality... I'm nth...

Emptiess fillz mua'z heart, body, mind and soul....