I blew my top: My miserable life in BigA...

Hey guys... 2day's a saddening day for mi... I flared up again... It's an emotion tt I never show in front of any1... Seriously... I thought I curbed it but I guess I wasn't in much control... Accumulation I guess...

Wat I meant by flare up is not xchanging of vulgaries or throwin punches n kicks... Not to tt extent... Jux throwin of stuff to a corner, making sure I dun physically hurt any1... It's not tt I totally lose it coz I still had control over my body... But my mind is jux sayin hack it...

I said I never shown my 'flaring up mode' to any1 is becoz I only flare up w/ my dog... Dere were times tt I held him by e neck, not tt hard, but my mind told my hands to release him... N well, he's still alive coz of my dying angelic side...

I thought I put tt demon of mine to slp but the BigA woke it up juz a moment ago n well, things started flying... I can't possibly kill e OC...

Anyway, it's all resolved n well, I guess my temper died gone when I threw e table top... So ya... My miserable life in BigA...

But luckily, I got a great PS n well, resolved; case closed... But wat abt 'him'?? Wat to do when my demon comes out to play again?? Haiz...

Take cares every1... It's time to set e cards n wait for e chance to flip dem...

Time to start blogging on a thursday nite...

Yoyoyo... It's a thursday nite n fellow frens ordy booked out... Like wat e hell la... Saddened... Cannot go rowin yet still hatta stay in dis hell hole...

So wanna watch my Dexter, Supernatural, Lost girl, naruto, bleach, fairy tail, toriko, etc... Haizzzzz... Now wat I'm bothered is abt tml... Cannot rest properly but tml still must go for some stupid shoot... Wat e hell la...

Apologies to cherie coz I'm unable to attend her birthday as well as I'm gonna b freaking tired on Sat for morning trainin n DEN afternoon trainin... Haiz...

How I wish I can go out... Haiz... Sighing again...